Father's Day...

Father's Day...:

I have done awesome this entire week with feeling good-not emailing T with drama (I actually haven't emailed him at all this week-which is a first in a year!!) and I was doing okay with this Father's Day thing...but I just looked at the postsecret website-and lost it...and I have the strongest desire for T-to talk to him-to email him...but I've done sooo good-I don't want to mess it up! I see him Monday evening-but right now that feels forever away : (

I don't like this holiday...bleh :(

should I email or just suck it up?